its a brand new year.
..and yet i remain the same.

the break’s almost over (i’m preparing myself for the new semester’s workload), and i have done pretty much nothing other than going on a 4 day cruise and.. guitar hero. i can’t believe i’ve spend so much time on guitar hero this break.. it causes my wrists to hurt. but oh well, my reasoning is that i won’t play in college at austin, and other people enjoy playing it, so why not just make the most of it while we’re all still here, right? *shrug* i guess i don’t really mind playing even though at times it seems really boring and kinda just.. why-in-the-world-do-i-keep-doing-this, but… i dunno.. more hangout time =) before [and i don’t mean to sound so pessimistic, but you never know] a) we get tired of each other,  b) we grow apart, or  c) we don’t have time for each other

so the thing with me and procrastination… it’s more of a cycle.  i put it away for a day, and the next day, i do the same.  it’s already been put off for a day, what’s another day gonna hurt?  and pretty soon the single days turn into weeks, and the weeks turn into months, and i haven’t gotten around to doing what i was supposed to do ages ago.  so what if i feel bad about it?  by the time i realize it, it’s been a few weeks, a few months… it’s too late to change now.  isn’t it good enough that i recognize my shortcomings?  and then i’m too lazy to change my ways…

how’s that for something new for the year?  it may sound overly simplistic, but what better than:
focus. quit lazying around.

its funny how i never particularly look forward to coming back for the long holidays (winter/summer), how i’m positive i’ll miss campus, how i’ll be bored and annoyed with life at home
and yet… towards the end of break i always dread going back, since life at home – through the boredom and annoyance – is still pretty grand

must be the laziness =)

[still never wanna live at home for college though]