man i think today was one of the most boring days i’ve had so far up here at UT…
after waking up at 6:30AM to study/cram, then taking the 9-12pm physics final exam, i went back to my room, only to realize that, other than studying, i had NOTHING TO DO.
and, because i am me, i refused to study. studying is left for tomorrow and whatnot (except i just realized that my test is SATURDAY, which leaves me THURSDAY and FRIDAY and SATURDAY… i’m not exactly sure that’s enough time)… but at least my number of finals were cut down from 4-2.. for that i certainly am quite grateful.
but yeah, i “finished” my internet (aka i had nothing else to read up on online and stuff) and was just. so. bored.
i ended up taking a 20 min nap, and waking up to play a rather long round of typer shark on popcap games. that was kinda boring, but i had nothing else to do…
then dinner, then back to this SBD (severe boredom disorder).. i played a card game (3 consecutive cards = multiple of 10, try to clear all your cards) that i reserve only for the bad times, when i can’t find anything else to do…

and yet somehow, i’ve managed to stay awake until now (it’s almost 3am)… i think i’m quite an expert at wasting time…

anyways, for more substance…
i re-read my most recent xanga entry, and i’ve come to realize that i only become nostalgic and wish for the past when the current isn’t satisfying enough. when i’m not comfortable with what’s happening now, i look back to the good days of the past.  it’s not like i don’t look back when things are going well – i tend to tell stories about my childhood days and all that – but i never reminisce or wish for the past days. not unless there’s something in the present that bothers me, something that was better in the past. that’s when i’m like “oh i miss the past”…
hopefully that made sense…

this roller-coaster of a year has been filled with looking inwards, discovering much more about myself than i ever knew existed, and trying to fish out stuff to talk about openly…

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