xanga revival?

haha i dunno, but hopefully? cuz i like reading all my old posts (i think i actually said the exact same thing many months ago) so i would like to have something to read about from my college experience.

well its almost the end of the school year, unfortunately. today during dinner we were just talking about how being a fish in college is nothing like being a fish in high school. in hs, everyone looks down on you (well ppl still look down on me..i’m short like that), but in college, everyone looks OUT for you. isn’t that nice? i think i’ve gotten rather spoiled as a college freshman… but no more, as a new batch of kids will be coming in, and i guess i have to learn to be nice to them and all…

also. i believe i’m back to square one. the beginning. WHAT in the world am i going to do with my life? you see, its just beginning to dawn on me… in a year, i will probably decide on a career. and then its a few years of school, and then WORK. for the rest of my life. eww…
and time goes by SO quickly at college, it’s quite flabbergasting (is that a word??) – in a year i’ll have taken my pharmacy entrance exam, or applied for the accounting program here… and after that i’m basically in that profession. but can i see myself doing one of those things for the rest of my life? do i like it enough? how do people find out what they want to do?! will i find out the answer by the end of next year so i’m not stuck doing something i may not especially like?
tune in for the next year to find out…

decisions…they make life so complicating…
and yet they’re a constant in life. so i guess its not merely death and taxes that you can depend upon… its decisions as well

but i’ll leave the few readers still out there with one decision that wasn’t hard to make — my new obsession song =)

In this farewell, there’s no blood, there’s no alibi.
‘Cause I’ve drawn regret, from the truth, of a thousand lies.
So let mercy come, and wash away…

What I’ve done,
I’ll face myself,
To cross out what I’ve become,
Erase myself,
And let go of what I’ve done…

Put to rest, what you thought of me.
While I clean this slate, with the hands, of uncertainty.
So let mercy come, and wash away…

What I’ve done,
I’ll face myself,
To cross out what I’ve become,
Erase myself,
And let go of what I’ve done…

For what I’ve done,
I start again,
And whatever pain may come,
Today this ends,
I’m forgiving what I’ve done…

I’ll face myself,
To cross out what I’ve become,
Erase myself,
And let go of what I’ve done…
What I’ve done…
Forgiving what I’ve done…

-what ive done (linkinpark)

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4 thoughts on “

  1. ncswim881

    lol–when you figure out how you know what you’re gonna do in life—you should tell me—lol—i think that everybody has that problem of figuring out what they want to do for the rest of their life

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  2. smyoGodlubsu

    nice post…i’m sure you’ll love reflecting upon it soon 😛 i like doing that too 😉 but ooo…that is SUCH a tough decision!!!! i hope you figure out what you want to doo!! i’ll pray for ya 🙂

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  3. aussie_ch1ck

    haha dudeee this post is sooo long XD anddd what is up with u and linkin park? 😛 i’m slowly dettaching myself from rk 😦 but matt t and i shall always be 😀

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